Why I’m moving away from freelancing

Since posting this article, a lot has changed – and actually I’ve came back to freelancing, and I will talk about it in my next post, but I am leaving this post here, to remind myself of my mindset and what I was thinking while moving to another country.

As an experienced freelancer and advocate for remote work – I’ve been asked a lot  in recent months why am I transitioning from freelance to permanent. It’s more of a personal and emotional view on things than it’s anything else. Maybe you can benefit from my train of thought, and maybe I will need some reminding down the road.

In business as well as my work, if you ask me, I will always say that I base all my decisions on numbers, research, facts and that I keep a cool head when making any decision. And, although that’s true, what I leave out is that all that comes into play once my emotional side is satisfied.

If I hate something in my life, that is the feeling of “having to…”. I just can’t stomach that feeling where you MUST do something you don’t want to do and makes you feel bad doing. Ever since I was a kid – I hated going to school, dealing with teachers telling me what I have to do and spending my days surrounded with people I don’t like or don’t share interests with. Early on I developed enmity towards authority that stuck with me for a long time.

Please, don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I think school is bad for kids, I just felt that I didn’t belong and what I was being taught in school, especially in later years, will never be of use in my career and everyday life. I’m looking at you quadratic formula. This could have been a result of different factors, and it’s a topic for another time, another blog post.

Nevertheless the feeling stayed, and to quote a dear departed friend

“I like to be in the good.”

Ever since I started my career I was in a search of that “good feeling” that you can read about in all those life quotes. Do what you love and you won’t have to work a day. Aim for the moon, if you miss you’ll be far away from me with your inspirational bullshit, and many others…

I am happy to say that I found it in being an entrepreneur, to start a company and do what you (think you) know how to do on your own terms, working with people you feel best fit into your mission, and doing it restlessly for over ten years regardless of all the failures. I found that good feeling.
So – why am I switching my career path if it’s that good?

One of my biggest pet peeves is “standing still”, or feeling unchallenged. I could never imagine myself doing same thing day in and day out. This was one of the main reasons for starting my own company, and going freelance. BUT if I take a step back and look at everything as a whole – that repetitiveness started to appear. Yes, every project is different, and every client is another challenge. That’s just it. It’s another client, another project. Challenges became repetitive and again I felt as I was standing still and was unchallenged.

When I met my wife, one of our earliest topics was how awesome would be to live in London. Our first vacation was a trip where I fell in love with that city instantly and we decided that we will be living there at some point. We had to wait for her to finish college so we can move our plans along. Now that time is here, and my plans of freelancing in London changed, I was ready to find something permanent.

Currently I feel that I’ve done all there is as a freelance product designer, and now I want to build a product on a larger scale all the while building and putting my stamp on a company culture and mentoring younger generations. I believe that for me there is no better place to do it than London.

It’s time for some new experiences – and I can’t wait!

Quote of the day:

If you want to be successful in this world, you have to follow your passion, not a paycheck. — Jen Welter

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Tom Kozacinski
Tom Kozacinski
I'm a London based product designer, creative entrepreneur, freelancer and advocate of remote work with over 12 years in the industry. I also have 12 years of experience as a stand-up comedian and I love to share my experience.
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